March

I started two blog posts during March to just get my thoughts written down. One was about how stressed and anxious I was feeling about motherhood, keeping a clean house, surviving the winter and honestly it was very depressing with a lot of complaining. The second I wrote about a week and a half later on my phone while I was at preschool pick up. The sun was shining, my heart was full of gratitude and love for my family and everything in my life. I honestly love that I wrote them both down. When I am feeling anxious it helps so much to write my thoughts down and then forget them. Often times deleting them right after. I have some pretty anxious and hard mom days. Some weeks I just get into a funk that only a bit of time and resetting myself will fix. However I still love everything about my life I have been given. Sometimes my heart is so full I think it might burst. My beautiful boys who sometimes drive me crazy make me want to explode with joy. I have a beautiful life and a home I love.
I was able to watch a mom and dad bird take care of their eggs in a nest on our front porch all month long. There were three babies and they just flew away. It brought so much joy watching them care for their sweet babies. I love how easily love can be found everywhere we look.
I love how excited Everett is to see me after preschool. As soon as he sees my car he gets the biggest smile, waves, and says momma in the sweetest most innocent perfect voice. Same with Nathan, when I get Nathan from his crib after a nap, sometimes he will give me the sweetest embrace, other times he is falling as fast as he can to get down and go play. Either way he is just so happy to see me and I love it.